Dear Brother

This is for the first time I am writing about my brother Sreekanth.He is a guide to me in several spheres of life.
Here I list some areas of life where I have his influence.
1.Walking -->learned the walking style from him
2.Movie viewing habit--> we still go to movies together
3.Reading books -->I read many books..most of them collected by him.7 out of 10 books I have , I would have borrowed from him
4.Objectivism --> He introduced me to the Ayn Rand' book 'FOUNTAIN HEAD' while I was doing my BTech. The philosophy of Objectivism showed vital influence on my life there after.

These are some aspects I can list.There can be so many things that he would have influenced me. He has been working as Project/Research Assistant in the IISc ,Bangalore for past 5 years.I used to spend sometime with him once a month or so in the IISc campus discussing various things.They were some good moments of life going to remain for ever.He has got a PhD admission in NeuroSciences from OpenUniversity(London).Jan 2008 is his last month at IISc.That brings an end to my times at IISc with my brother.

Sweet Memories

Since I was young I am fond of sweets.Sweets were always been part of my life.I always had the ability to consume considerably large amounts in short spans.At times I could not imagine life without them ; haa....now time is running out for poor sweets.

Today I have decide to stop consuming sweets from now on. This decision I have taken just to protect my future health.The present sound health needs to be sustained.There will not any concessions to this resolve. No sweets to me from now on.Nov 27 is my last Sweet day.Let me see how well my resolve gets implemented.

This is the first of a few resolves for the coming new year.May be I need to compile and put up all my resolves so far to measure my consistency in keeping them.

Beautiful Name

Your name is very beautiful and so are you
I am here waiting for you ,forgetting myself .
Not just one or two ,I felt 100 years of memories I have about you ,stopping my breathe .
At least at the time I fell apart into pieces I wish you would come before me .

I forgot myself and all words,perhaps I don't remember the language I speak
Though I burned my fingers once in my attempt to know you,
I could not stop chanting your name in myself .
Like the divine bell rings in temple,your name is resonating in my mind .
Is it my fate? or Is it a story ?whatever it is,it doesn't change?

You say you don't remember me and hide all the secrets,really I don't know the truth.
I felt you are very next to me,but you never want to come with me .
I don't know what to do to make you believe what I feel,I am here waiting for you .
Your name is very beautiful and so are you ,I am still here waiting for you forgetting myself.

-JP

Quotes Collected -- 2007 Nov

Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence. - Robert Frost



The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority. - Ralph W. Sockman


No one means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thought is viscous. - Henry Adams

My Dear Friend

Two years back at this point of time I was in a bad state with regard to all the things.I could not be able to share all the things going on with me to anybody.I explained things in bits to my friends.Still there were things which I could not share.I felt lonely at times not able to do anything.

At this point of time I bought a new bike Pulsar 150cc.I used this life less bike to roam around Bangalore.Whenever I felt mad,I just used to start it and let it go on the roads how ever far it can go. Its pickup ,style and robustness were the major source of energy and inspiration for me.It taught me so many things .At that point of time one of the things I was reflecting upon was where I excelled so far in life and where I did not and the reasons behind them.One of the things I found was that which ever skill I picked up early when compared to peers I excelled with respect to that .The reason mostly being psychological.Keeping aside the findings of reflections and their resulted actions ,I picked my biking skills so early and I still think to improve on it on each drive .The mind set of 'open to improve on a skill each time you use it' is the key factor in achieving excellency .That's is how my 'biking skill' has become role model for me in reaching excellency in other walks of life.Hah... I am really not an excellent biker,but definitely not a bad one.

I longed to have my own bike since my B.Tech days.I could realize it only after three months of getting into the job.I used all the saved money and credit card to get this one.Eventually it became integral part of my life.It was with me for the past two years witnessing my lows and highs.With October 24th 2007 it completes 2yrs of my ownership.I would like to recognize this milestone.My dear friend You gave me the real company when I really needed one.I will give you the best treatment always.

చందమామ

బుగ్గే బంగారమా సిగ్గే సింగారమా అగ్గే రాజేసేలెమ్మా
వొల్లే వయ్యరమా నవ్వే మందారమా నన్నే కాజెసేనమ్మా
పట్టు చీరెల్లొ చందమామ ఏడు వన్నెల్లొ వెన్నెలమ్మా
కన్నె రూపాల కోనసీమ, కోటి తారల్లో ముద్దుగుమ్మ

ఎదురే నిలిచే అధర మధుర దరహాసం, ఎదురై పిలిచే చిలిపి పడుచు మధుమాసం
వెలిగే అందం చెలికే సొంతం వసంతం .., వరమై దొరికే అసలు సిసలు అపురూపం
కలిసే వరకు కలలో జరిగే విహారం
పుష్య మాసాల మంచు నీవో, భోగి మాటల్లో వేడి నీవో
పూల గాంధాల గాలి నీవో పాల నురగల్లొ తీపి నీవో

బుగ్గే బంగారమా

ఎదలొ జరిగే విరహ సెగల వనవాసం, బదులే అడిగే మొదటి వలపు అభిసేకం
వధువై బిడియం ఒదిగే సమయం ఎపుడో , జతగా పిలిచే ఆగరు పొగల సహవాసం
జడతో జగడం జరిగే సరసం ఎప్పుడో..,
అన్ని పువ్వుల్లో ఆమె నవ్వే అన్ని రంగుల్లో ఆమె రూపే
అన్ని వేళల్లో ఆమె ధ్యాసే నన్ను మొత్తంగా మాయా చేసే-

-చందమామ

Inside Out

Usually I listen only to Telugu music. I have a large number of my favourite songs.Songs/Music have been part of my life ever since I possess a laptop (last quarter of 2003).The habit is continuing with variety adding in between.Some time this month I got a good collection English songs ranging from MJ to Beatles.I had an allergic feeling to these English songs with guitar sounds in the background.This time there are a great number of songs ,which could grab my great attention.These days I am enjoying these songs whenever I get mood to listen to something rejuvenating .I have become a fan to Bryan Adams . I am collecting lyrics to these songs from Internet and relishing this music with some amount of understanding .
Here I have the lyrics for one such good song. I would like to write something like this.
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Inside Out - Bryan Adams

The Biggest Lie u ever told
The Deepest fear about growing old
The longest night u ever spent
The angriest letter u never sent
The boy yes boy u never leave
The one u kissed on new years eve
The sweetest dream u had last night
Your darkest hour, ur hottest fight

I want to know u, Like i Know myself
I'm waiting for you, there aint no one else
Talk to me baby, scream & shout
I wanna know, u inside out.

I wanna dig down deep , I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream & shout, I wanna know u inside out
I wanna take my time, I wanna know ur mind
U know that there aint no doubt, i wanna know u inside out

The saddest song u ever heard,
The most u said with just one word
The loneliest prayer u ever prayed,
The truest vow u ever made,
What makes u laugh, what makes u cry,
What makes u mad, what gets u by,
Your highest high, ur lowest low,
These are the things I want to know

I want to know u, Like i Know myself
I'm waiting for you, there aint no one else
Talk to me baby, scream & shout
I wanna know u inside out.

I wanna dig down deep , i wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream & shout, I wanna know u inside out
I wanna take my time, I wanna know ur mind.
You know that there aint no doubt, i wanna know u inside out.

I waana know ur soul, i wanna lose control
come on let it out, i wanna know u inside out.

dig down deep , lose some sleep
I wanna scream & shout, I wanna know u inside out

I wanna know u inside out
I wanna know u inside out
I wanna know u inside out
I wanna know u inside out
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common folly

The most common of all follies is to believe passionately in the palpably not true. It is the chief occupation of mankind.
--H. L. Mencken

ఈ వేళలో నీవు ఎం చేస్తూ వుంటావు

ఈ వేళలో నీవు ఎం చేస్తూ వుంటావు
అనుకుంటూ ఉంటాను ప్రతి నిమిషమూ నేను
నా గుండె ఏనాడో చేజారీ పోయింది నీ నీడ గా మారి నావైపు వాలింది
దూరాన ఉంటూనే ఎం మాయా చేసావో.

||ఈ వేళలో ||

నడి రెయిలో నీవు నిదరైన రాణీవు గడిపేదెలా కాలము గడిపేదెలా కాలము
పగలైన కాసేపు పని చేసుకొనీవు నీమీదనే ధ్యానము నీమీదనే ధ్యానము

ఎవైపు చూస్తున్నా నీ రూపే కాచినది
నువ్వు కాక వేరేమీ కనిపించనంటుంది
ఈ ఇంద్రజాలాన్ని నీవేన చేసింది
నీపేరులో ఏదో ప్రియమైన కైపు ఉంది
నీ మాట వింటూనే ఎం తోచ నీకుంది
నీ మీద ఆశ ఏదో నను నిలువ నీకుంది
మతి పోయి నే ఉంటే నువు నవ్వుకుంటావు
||ఈ వేళలో ||

Permanance

శాశ్వతమైనది ఏది ??
నాకు తెలియదు ప్రతి రోజు ఎంత సమయం ఏ విషయం గురుంచి ఎంత సేపు ఆలోచిస్తిన్ననో ??
నాకు తెలియదు నేను అనుకున్నది సాధిచడానికి ఎంత దూరంలో నేను ఉన్నానో??
నాకు తెలియదు నా తరువాత ఈ ప్రపంచం ఎలా ఉంటుందో??
కానీ ఈ భూమి మీద శాశ్వతమైనది ఏదో నాకు తెలుసు అని నేను అనుకుంటున్నాను
------నా జీవితం నాకు ,ఇతరులకు మిగిల్చే అనుభూతులు

I want to run a lot

When I was in 6 th class my PET teacher at school conducted a 'cross country race'.All the boys(50-60) of the class had to run up to a near by village and come back to the original starting point.The distance ,I don't remember but my the then feeling can be equalled to my current feeling towards a Marathon race.I had no idea if I could complete it at all.Boys of all the classes up to Intermediate (plus one standard) were around.I was a bit nervous by seeing the crowd.Also I had no idea of all the competitor's abilities.I Just told my self that I should stand first in the race.

The race started at once.I can still remember that just after running for about 2 or 3 km I had got exhausted.No idea about others. But I tried to maintain my self in the first 10 members by adjusting my pace.After completing the half the distance
I could see some the people dropping by.I kept myself saying to me that the race is still to complete and not to give up at any cost.In the second half of the race,I could find that all the people separated by large distances.But I had no idea where I was standing in the race.My eyes were getting closed as the race origin point was approaching.I was turning back again and again to check if anybody approaching me from behind closely.I almost fell down as crossed the finish line.

I still remember that I was in sub-conscious state at that time.I just had the satisfaction of completing the race and the anxiety to know my standing.To my consolation I came second the race.
I still remember this race as it was the test to my perseverance.Since then I love to run .Inspite of a long gap I still want to run a lot.Taking forward this reinvented old hobby of mine.....one day I would like to finish marathon race

QuoteOfTheMonth

Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away

ExecutionQuotient

Usually we prepare plans, schedules to manage personal/professional life.But our execution of the plan could be quite wayward at times.The reasons can be many ,to put concisely it is largely because of one's execution ability of plans.There could even be problem with estimation and preparation of the plans.Plan preparation is altogether different ability.But taken the fact that plan is in place,if we could measure execution/implementation progress of the plans then it would be helpful in ascertaining execution ability and improving on this skill further.

I would like to do it this way.I would prepare a plan which contains 'ToDeliverList' for a month.These are concrete deliverables each with a varying value called credit value(similar to credits of academic courses).Credit value depends on the priority of the 'ToDeliverItem'.Then define grades(similar to academic grades)for these deliverables for varying degree of completion/delivery of deliverables.At the end of the month calculate GPA ;sigma(grade*credit value)/sigma(credit). This number I call ExecutionQuotient .EQ will definitely a measure of execution ability of our plans.

Looking forward to execute this EQ calculation for this month of February.